Happy 4th!

Hope you all had a wonderful 4th with family and friends!

Our Little Beach Bums

Summertime, Summertime, Sum-Sum-Summertime!

Well, the summer is flying by! Tons of stuff going on-- always something to do or somewhere to be.... Days are spent in a comfortable routine of going to the Y and then usually some pool time before lunch and the afternoon nap.

I have really been working out harder than ever! I am enjoying it! Kickboxing is the best, and I just ordered some pink gloves which should make class even more fun!

The kids are great! Luke has definitely hit the beginnings of the "terrible twos"-- at least "terrible" compared to his formerly semi-perfect behavior status. Everything now is "My do! My do!" from Mr. Independent. He is also testing his boundaries when it comes to obedience.

I am almost finished with book by Tedd Trip called Shepherding a Child's Heart. I feel like he has some wonderful things to say about Biblical parenting. We are also in a parenting class at church taught by a great Christian women based out of her many years of experience as the principal of David Lipscomb Elementary. Yes, each week the information sometimes contradicts and conflicts, but I assume that parenting is just like everything else... You glean bits of wisdom where you can, decide what works, and then pray a lot! :) For some reason, I doubt my parents analyzed their particular parenting style, and I seemed to turn out ok-- I think!?!

For all you ZOE fans-- we are hitting the recording studios in a week or two. This is our 10th year! Hard to believe. This year's project should be a tad different than the others. We are trying to pull together a type of "hymns" collection-- some old, some new, some old with a twist.
The worship pendulum is starting to swing back toward songs with deeper lyrics-- more hymn-like, less praise-like. So, we are hoping to use this CD as a type of transitional bridge between the two. There are some really solid songs. Pray for us!

Here are the kiddos!

Can you believe-- Caroline is now 4 months-old!?
She is always happy and good as gold!

She's now 14 pounds and 1 ounce.
Just perfect, we're proud to announce!

"A Little Luke" is what everyone keeps saying...
He was so good, so we keep praying!

See the photos of him at her age.
Similar? We'll let you all gauge!

Oh, How the Years Go By....

Scott and I celebrated our 11th anniversary yesterday! We went to our favorite spot to dine in Nashville-- Fleming's. We have commemorated all the major events of our life there for the past several years.... anniversaries, pregnancies, Valentine's Day...

I pulled out our wedding and honeymoon videos and made Luke watch! He wasn't too interested! :) The one thing that made me cringe was when it hit me that I have officially become one of "those people" who remark about how skinny I looked in my dress and how I would never be able to fit into it again! YIKES! We looked SO young and naive! It is hard to accept that we are OLD now!!! :)

Last night was very special... We had a great discussion over dinner about our marriage and our relationship. It has changed so much since the arrival of our kids. That is inevitable, I'm sure. Scott and I were blessed to spend the first nine years of marriage "playing" and traveling around the world. Nobody had more fun than we did! It truly was a perfect life! We were best friends and couldn't have asked for anything more.

I always used to marvel when people would talk about marriage being "work"-- I could never relate, because the relationship Scott and I had was far from work. Well-- I think I have reached a point after 11 years where I am beginning to understand what it means. "Work" might not be the exact word I would use-- maybe "effort" would be better. It takes effort to stay on track now.

I never thought twice before kids about making the time to talk to Scott about my thoughts and dreams and feelings. Now I find myself thinking that I should, but then I get too busy, or I'm too tired to bring things up. He is still my best friend-- no doubt-- but, it is so easy to fall into the trap of two people living under the same roof if you aren't constantly aware of communicating with one another.

We talked about that and many other things. It was nice to reconnect and recommit to one another. We feel very blessed to still be so in love and genuinely happy after 14 years together-- dating and marriage. God has been faithful to us, and we look forward to many years ahead.

Mile-High Ministry

The ZOE Girls!! Emily, Karin, Me, & Melissa.

Emily is officially one of the gang now! She's so fun! She sang with us at Pepperdine, too.

What a great weekend in Denver! I learned that I can pull off soprano reasonably well, but it isn't half as fun as harmonizing! Altos rule! Melissa was great putting up with me though!

The people at Arvada church couldn't have been nicer. That is the best thing about being blessed to a part of ZOE-- meeting Christian brothers and sisters from coast to coast. It gives you a much bigger sense of the "church of Christ."

Caroline was an angel. She slept on both legs of the flight. She was happy and amenable the whole weekend and was passed around to anyone who wanted to hold her. I don't think she fussed more than 5 minutes all weekend. She is so good-natured! Another blessing! Scott was great, too, and spent much of the time holding her-- which I think he enjoyed. Another blessing!

On the way to Denver...

On the way to Denver in the morning for a ZOE conference at the Arvada Church. It should be a fun weekend! I am actually singing soprano this weekend! YIKES! That should be fun, too! I am still getting over my sinus issues that I've had for over two weeks, so I am praying that my voice will hold up and sound decent! Good thing Brandon is still on hiatus-- he'd probably have a heart attack! :)

We shipped Luke back to my parents today to stay while we're gone. He has so much fun at Pa Bob and Ma Betz's house. We had been to visit them last weekend along with both my sisters and the cousins, Camille and Austin. Luke had a blast with them, and they are still up there, so I'm sure he won't even notice we're gone.

Ran into my high school boyfriend-- Lance-- while we were at my parents. I dated him all through high school and the first semester of college at Lipscomb. I even attended his wedding after we broke up. Well, he got divorced in December after 13 years of marriage! So sad to see him act as if it was the best thing that ever happened to him-- especially right in front of his 7 year-old daughter! She even commented at one point that "mom and dad fought a lot!" She seemed so nonchalant about it all. It just struck me as such a tragic situation. I asked him what had happened, and he said they had just grown apart. He said he had been traveling a good deal. Lord, please protect our marriages! They are so precious and fragile in so many ways!

Our friends Kevin and Lana had their baby boy yesterday, and we went to visit them tonight. Caroline looked like she was fixing to graduate high school compared to him! Which is funny since she was the same size as he was just 3 months ago. Boy does time fly by--- they just grow up way too fast! She is just perfect! Thank you, Lord, for our little miracle!

That's What It's All about!?

Saw this exact bumper sticker as we were driving home from the Y this morning-- It made me laugh, and I had to pass it along!

And as a side note-- I just couldn't resist! :)

There was a great loss recently in the entertainment world. Larry LaPrise, the Detroit native who wrote the song "Hokey Pokey," died last week at 83.

It was especially difficult for the family to keep him in the casket. They'd put his left leg in and... well, you know the rest.

Busy Bee

If ants are such busy workers, then how do they find time to go to all the picnics?!




Busy seems to be a word that pops into my vocabulary much too frequently! I have reached a point where saying, "I'm so busy," just seems so ridiculous. For some reason, it can too easily become a catch-all phrase to rationalize everything that goes unaccomplished in our lives-- "sorry I didn't call... I've been so busy"; "I didn't get to that yet-- I've been so busy!"; "sorry we didn't make it, we were just so busy!"

Everyone is busy these days. We are all over-committed, tired, and running crazy. That's life-- unfortunately! Keeping a full plate has been the way I have always operated, so I am ashamed to say that I am used to this way of living. Thankfully, I am blessed to have plenty of stretches where life is calm and peaceful-- but, those don't last too long before I have put myself back into "busy mode."

Why? I have this overwhelming need to be "useful" and "needed." Somewhere in my crazy mind, I guess if I am busy then those needs are met-- "I must be valuable because I always have things to do." And, since this is part of my "reward" for staying busy, I actually enjoy it-- no matter how crazy it gets! I need help, huh?! :)

So-- my latest task to undertake is running a consignment sale at church! I am VERY excited about it even though it is going to be a ton of work. I am also working with a great bunch of people to help pull it off. All the proceeds will go toward building a new playground at our new location. I designed the entire web site in one "busy" afternoon! Check it out and get involved if you're near! www.ottercreeksale.com

Mother's Day was great this year! So hard to believe I have two kiddos! They are truly a blessing and joy! They are probably the only "legitimate" item on my busy list!

Sweet Baby James

Last night Scott and I went to see our beloved James Taylor at the Ryman. JT has been our favorite ever since we first started dating. Scott made me a tape (yes, it was a LONG time before recording to CDs was available-- way back in the dark ages of 1992!) that had "How Sweet It Is to Be Loved By You" and "You've Got a Friend" on it. I was hooked-- on Scott and on JT!

We went to see him in concert soon afterwards and have continued to go hear him every time he comes to Nashville. Last night was our first time to hear him at the Ryman. It was REALLY great! That place is so intimate. It felt like we were sitting in his living room just listening to him play and talk about the amazing songs he has written over the years. It was just him, his guitar, and a piano player--- a very stripped down, unplugged, acoustic-type performance... very real and honest. He showed photos that corresponded to the songs and told great behind the scenes stories on a variety of things about his life and work. It was SO good!

So-- Last night, as I sat listening to him, I felt such gratitude toward him for unknowingly helping to write a soundtrack for my life. I even call Scott "James"-- a nickname that goes back to our first months of dating which I derived from his song "Sweet Baby James" that we both love.

This is the second time I have blogged about going to a JT concert. We went last summer to see him, and I wrote about it in an August 2005 posting :

Scott and I went to a James Taylor concert Sunday night. What a place to people watch! We had grass seats. As I looked around at the sea of young-- and old-- lovebirds, it struck me just how much time had gone by since Scott and I first went to see James Taylor in 1992. We had only been dating a month-- our relationship was so new! We were SO "in love"! We reveled in the summer night and had no clue what the years ahead had in store for us!

He has so many songs that have meant so much to me and Scott, and now, to our family-- I used several of his songs in the two DVDs I have made documenting Luke's first two years ("Whenever I See Your Smiling Face", "Getting to Know You"). I had actually thought about naming Luke "James", but a couple in our lifegroup already has a little boy with the name. Ironically though, I found out that JT's current wife is named Caroline! He even wrote a song for her on his October Road CD called Caroline, I See You. Crazy!

Anyway-- his voice is magic. I am so thankful that he was given a venue in this life to use his gifts and creativity. It has been special to us.

How Time Flies...

Right before our eyes.... What a miracle!

Pepperdine 2006

We had a great time in Pepperdine last week! The kids did so well! They slept all the way out on the plane and back! They did a wonderful job adjusting to the time change, too. All in all, it was a very pleasant time. It is so nice seeing people from year to year and hearing such incredible speakers/thinkers.

I went to several talks on the "post modern" church. It is an interesting topic to me. Rubel did a class on the subject that was truly fabulous! I miss hearing him each Sunday SO much! Listening to him again made me realize how much... One day I was standing in the back of his session holding Caroline and I got teary-eyed just thinking how sad it was that she would never grow up hearing him speak. He would just be some preacher that Scott and I always reminisced about-- just like my parents do about Batsell Barrett Baxter and Ira North!

A beautiful day out by the fountain!

Luke and Caroline had a great time in Malibu! Last year Luke was barely walking while this year he was all over the place! He had a great time playing with all the kids at the child care area each day during the morning sessions. He is such a big boy! Next year Caroline will be walking! Time flies!

Caroline and Daddy!

Having fun on the beach! Caroline's first trip to the ocean!

Luke loves his little sister!

What a sweetie! Luke is such a joy! :)

Getting Real-- Growing Relationships

Tomorrow we head to Pepperdine. I am running around today trying to make sure we have everything we need packed up and ready to go! It's astounding how many "accessories" you have to bring for the kids!

I just had to take a moment to document the most amazing weekend! Our small group had a retreat this weekend, and I am still overwhelmed with what a great experience it was. This is a group of 5 couples-- we all went to Lipscomb together except for one couple who moved here a few years ago. We officially began meeting together as a group last summer.

It was easy for all of us to join the group-- we all went to church together, most of us had known each other well over a decade... We had been in studies together before and had been friends for a long time. But, in forming this group this time around, we all decided we wanted more than just a social circle-- we wanted a genuine family of people who we could be real with, share our hearts and secrets with-- people who would hold us accountable and challenge us spiritually.

We decided to meet every Sunday, and things began as most small groups do. We tackled Eldredge's Waking the Dead. It was a great book, and we had nice discussions on trying to live a life for the Lord "fully alive" and aware that Satan wanted to keep us in the dark to the abundant life God has called us to live. We did a pretty good job of staying on track for the most part, but sometimes it got hard to stay organized and to meet every week. We all have busy schedules and many things going on. In spite of the occasional lapses, we all pledged our commitment to the group and forged on.

During this time, Scott and I had left Woodmont and had begun attending Otter Creek. Another one of the couples had left Woodmont and joined another local Church of Christ. The other three couples were on "church tours" of sorts, trying to find a place that felt right (I was hoping they would land at OC with us!). Well, the other three couples did start coming to OC and I am praying that they join in the near future! Yeah!

Also during this time I was put on bed rest, and three of the girls were also pregnant! I safely delivered Caroline, but a few weeks later one of the girls suffered a tragic miscarriage. Then, a few weeks later the last girl in our group announced she was also pregnant! So, there was much happening within the group-- a complete range of emotions and experiences that we were all sharing. House building, moving, and selling was also in the mix.

At one meeting in March, we decided that we all needed to refocus. We had finished the book and we needed to decide where we were headed next. We also needed to re-examine our commitment to the group and what are visions were for it. We decided then and there that we needed to get away one weekend without the kids and have a little retreat. We picked a date and vowed to make it happen!

Well-- this past Saturday it became a reality, and it was honestly like no other retreat I have ever been a part of. I had given each couple a list of questions to answer-- both individually and as a couple (see end of post). These questions were a way for us to share our pasts and our life experiences with one another. I never realized what a truly amazing time would result from it.

Each couple had a chance to talk and share life stories. There was no time limit and no agenda. We just listened and shared. It was really beautiful, and although we "knew" each other, we learned so many things that we would never have known without this precious time. Secrets were revealed and walls were torn down, both between the couples themselves and between all of us. It was wonderful to begin to see how very similar our struggles were and also how very different each of our lives had been. There was family disfunction, abuse, rebellion, intimacy issues as well as wonderful memories, embarrassing moments, and many "remember whens".

We finally shut things down around 3 am! The next morning we had a terrific time of worship and communion with one another! The weekend was just so wonderful! Every person should be so blessed to be a part of such a family! We plan on being there for each other through thick and thin-- good and bad! Our main goal is to be real with each other so that we can help each other be real with God. This is where genuine relationships must begin-- taking off the masks, acknowledging our quirks and flaws, and revealing our deepest desires and needs. This weekend we laid a great foundation for this to happen.

Thank you, Lord, for friends who become family!
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When were you born? Where?Any interesting circumstances?

Do you have brothers/sisters?

Describe the relationships within your family? Were you close to one another? How have things changed over the years?

What did you admire about your parents? What would you have changed?

How was “faith” and belief in God handled in your home?

How did you handle your own personal faith during your teen/high school years? In college? What were your beliefs? Did you attend church? Why—why not?

Where do you see yourself now as far as your faith? How would you describe your relationship with God? What are you still searching for, if anything? What things have you discovered and learned about God?

How did you meet? How long did it take for you to know that it was “real love”?

Describe your dating relationship? Was it healthy? Did you fight a lot? Break up? Did your faith play any role in the way you related to each other?

How long did you date before you got engaged? How did you get engaged?

Describe your wedding? Any fun stories? What would you change about it now looking back, if anything? What was the best thing about that day?

Describe your honeymoon— where did you go? What did you do? How long were you away? Fun moments?

What was the biggest adjustment for you to make once you were married? Did anything surprise you about what it would be like to be married?

What was your first “big fight” about? How did you resolve it?

Describe your “fight” personalities—how do you fight? Who is aggressive? Passive? Calm? Erratic? Violent? Silent treatment?

What do you fight about the most? Why do you think this is the case?

What is the biggest trial you have faced as a married couple? What helped you get through it together?

How has having children changed your relationship? What is your favorite part about being parents?

Do you agree on how to discipline your kids? Is one of you the “bad guy”? Where do you think your weakness is in this area? Your strengths?

How have you developed your faith together as a couple? Do you talk about your relationship with God together? Do you pray together? Study together? If not, why?

What legacy do you want to leave for your family? What are some things in your marriage that you have tried not to incorporate based upon your parents’ relationship and the example they set for you? What are some things that you have tried to establish as new traditions for your family? What do you want your children to inherit from you as far as relationships go?

Easter Greetings!

Happy Easter from all FOUR of us!

Our Little Buckaroo!

Luke is such a doll! He is 26 months-old now and so much fun!

Six Weeks and Sick of Being Weak

Life with two who are two and under is going great! But, you probably have noticed that I haven't been posting quite as regularly lately!

As of this week, Caroline is 6 weeks-old! It is almost impossible to believe! It just seems surreal that at one point we were counting down the days until she was scheduled to arrive-- praying that she wouldn't come too early. God is good!

She has such a great nature about her so far. She is very easy-going and "luggable". She tends to sleep whenever I need her to and she doesn't really cry unless it's time to eat. She hasn't quite gotten her night time routine down. One night she will do a 9 to 3 stretch-- the next night she will be up at 12, 4, 7-- nothing consistent day-to-day. Regardless, I really couldn't ask for her to do anything better! She has been so easy!

I hope that she continues this streak when we head to California in a few weeks! Yep, it's that time of year again-- ZOE at the Pepperdine lectures. It is crazy that it was two years ago when we were preparing to pack Luke up for the trip. He was just turning 3 months-old, and I was terrified that he would be a complete nightmare. I was still in the "frightened new mommy" mode-- I had just started to figure out what I was doing, but I was nowhere near confident in my abilities or in his comfort levels. He did great to my delight! Here's to Caroline doing the same-- Please, Lord!! :)

Luke is such a doll! Getting bigger and smarter each day. His favorite phrase lately has been--"Can you help (welp) me?" It is so precious! He has also started saying "Thanks, Dad" and "Thanks, Mom" whenever we give him things or do something for him-- also precious.

So-- life on the Westerman front is going well! We couldn't be happier at church, too! We love Otter Creek. The elders and leadership there are the BEST! We have been so impressed with their vision for the church and how they run things. It also looks like the rest of our small group is planning on placing membership as well! We are thrilled that our close friends will be joining us on the journey! Yippee!!!! :)

Oh-- as of my last doctor's appointment when I heard my weight and a weekend of frustration over not being able to fit into my spring clothes-- I have FINALLY returned to the YMCA! I got a clean bill of health and no longer have ANY restrictions! BIG YEAH! But, the fact remains that I weigh more now than I EVER have in my life! That is quite hard to handle for me and I am SO anxious to get fit again. I could stand to lose at least 20 pounds. I know that sounds like a lot-- especially since I was pretty much back to normal within weeks of having Luke, but this time around I had 3 strikes against me: I was two years older, I was on the couch for 3 months, and I wasn't able to continue my workouts up until she was born like I did with Luke. So, I have SO SO much work to do. This week in the class I realized just how much, but I wasn't as bad as I thought I'd be-- it is kinda fun to have a challenge. I'll keep you posted! :)

Savoring the Moments of Motherhood

Motherhood is going great! Making the transition from one to two has been pretty much what I expected. We are fortunate that Caroline has been relatively "easy" so far, and I'm sure that has made things much nicer for all of us. She has stopped sleeping as long as night-- guess the newborn sleepiness has started to wear off a bit. She is now going 4 hours or so in the first stretch and then back to three for the next stretch. Still not too bad, and I am feeling rested the next day which has been such a blessing. I am praying that she will follow Luke's lead and be sleeping 10-6 by 10 weeks-- I can dream! :)

Caroline turned one month-old yesterday! I just can't believe how fast time has flown! I think having Luke around has kept things busy and made time go faster. Also, I think I have a greater appreciation this time around for just how quickly time does pass, so I am trying to savor every moment-- even at 3:00 am when Caroline is wide awake! She will be running around and saying her first words before we know it!

All in Due Time

A collage of our first week with Caroline.

Luke holding two week-old Caroline.

Caroline: two weeks-old.

It's hard to believe that our sweet little angel is almost 3 weeks old already! She weighed 7 pounds 13 ounces when she was born and was down to 7 lbs 1.5 oz. when we left the hospital. As of last Friday, she weighed 8 lbs 5 oz-- so she is eating well and getting enough milk. She is in the 40 percentile for height and weight. Luke has always been in the 95 percentile-- so she seems so small to us!

She is still doing really well-- She went for almost a week and a half sleeping at night from 9:00ish to 2:30ish and then back down until around 6:00 am. Then, this week she started sleeping a little less each night. I think now that she is getting bigger, she is getting hungrier faster, which is leading her to wake up earlier. During the day she is eating at least every two hours-- she just wants to eat! I remember Luke being the same way in the beginning.

I actually gave her a little formula on Saturday just to see if she would take a bottle. At first she didn't want anything to do with it, then she drank about an ounce with ease. I would really like to have the flexibility of being able to give her a bottle if needed. I have no idea when the "right time" to start her on a bottle is-- I just didn't want to wait until it was too late and she wouldn't be receptive to it. On the other hand, she really doesn't need formula-- although, I nursed her last night and just before I put her down, I gave her an ounce of formula-- she slept from 9 until 2:30 again!! I think the formula fills her up more-- though most doctors say that's an old wives' tale! :) Anyway-- I was always too terrified to even try to give Luke formula, now I realize that it won't hurt them... I just don't make enough milk to pump, and since I am already feeding her every two hours or so, I just don't want to get into the habit of dealing with breastfeeding ALL day long!! I have no intention of replacing a feeding with formula, but I really want to find a balance somehow that will allow me to keep her "bottle friendly" in case of emergency or necessity! It just takes the pressure off me a little bit and frees my schedule up a bit if I need to be gone. Ideas anyone?! Advice?!

I am very proud of the fact that I haven't had to miss a single church service since she was born! My Aunt has been coming to watch her for us on Sunday morning so that we can attend. She will hopefully be able to make her "debut" on Easter-- which will be around the time she turns six weeks. I am looking forward to being able to get out in public with her! :)

So, the adjustment to two has been MUCH easier than I had planned so far-- but we have a LONG way to go! I can't complain though! It is still amazing to look at her knowing what a miracle she is! I can't wait until she starts to develop a little personality and begins to smile!

We got great news this weekend that Luke got accepted to Otter Creek pre-school! We are thrilled! He will be in the "Young 3's" class with 13 other kids. He will go Tuesday/Thursdays from 9 to 2. I think he will love it! He is getting so big! :)

Apart from trying to make sure that Luke gets enough of my time and attention, life is good! I am sure every mom feels like that at first when trying to balance two kids. I am looking forward to the weather warming up and Caroline growing up a little more so that we can get outside to play. All in due time-- they will both grow up fast enough! :)

Treasured in My Heart

Today was my first day at home alone with Caroline! Scott was at work, and Luke was with his grandmother. So, I spent the entire day just gazing at her sweet, precious face! I still can't fathom that these times will pass quickly-- soon she will be more alert, develop her own personality, be able to interact with us... I just want to treasure these times in my heart forever!

My sweet little Caroline, just one week old,

My love for you can never be fully told.

You arrived in my life and captured my heart.

These sweet, precious times will quickly depart.

One day when you're older, you'll know this love, too.

But for now, just be little-- and let me love you.

JOY in ALL Circumstances

One week has come and gone since Caroline entered our lives. Yes, it is still early, but so far, she seems to have a sweet, calm nature. The first night home was rough. She was up only a couple of times, but she wouldn't go back to sleep after she ate-- just very fidgety. That next morning waking up with Caroline in the house was so nice. I was eating breakfast with Mom and Scott-- Caroline was napping away in the bassinet Daddy made her.... she truly had been a handful the night before. I was telling them that it hadn't bothered me a bit staying up with her and that I was just so happy that she was actually here and healthy-- then I just started crying! My mom was worried that I was having a bout of "baby blues", but I was crying tears of JOY! It was just so amazing that she made it! What a miracle!!! We are so blessed!

Her next night (Saturday) was MUCH better-- she actually slept in 4-5 hour blocks. The next morning I even felt good enough to go to church. This was our first Sunday in the new sanctuary at church, and I really hated to miss it. Mom stayed home with Caroline and the rest of us headed out. It was so nice to be out and about so soon this time around-- such a different experience than I had after Luke was born.

She is sleeping and eating on a great schedule. Monday night she went down at 11:30 and didn't get up until 6:30!! How nice to have such a big chunk of sleep! During the day she is doing great at having wake time and enduring all of Luke's poking fingers in her face! He isn't really jealous of her as far as we can tell. He likes to touch her bow in her hair and her nose. He is developing a bad habit of pinching her hand really hard. I know he realizes he shouldn't, but he does it anyway. That is probably his way of keeping the upper hand or something over her... who knows... She is not too bothered by him. He does a pretty good job of holding her, too. It is very sweet!

So far it has been an incredibly easy adjustment but I have also had my mom here to help entertain Luke and let me focus on Caroline. I am starting to feel almost normal as far as my physical issues go. The c-section went so well this time. I never even had any pain medication-- which my night nurse said she had NEVER seen before. The only thing I have had to take is Motrin and I don't really feel like I need it anymore at this point. Scott pulled the tape off my incision last night so now I am officially on the mend. What an awkward feeling having your husband look at your scar! He has really been through the worst with me and has seen me at some pretty low points physically-- yet he never has complained once! It is nice being married to your best friend. I could NEVER have made it through all of this without him.

Marriage has been on our minds a good deal since this weekend... Saturday-- our first full day home-- we had decided to sneak off to Baja Burrito for lunch. We ran into a neighbor who is currently going through a horrible divorce. They had been married almost 30 years and suddenly he left-- he had found his "soul mate"-- the woman God surely intended him to be with. So 3 kids and 30 years later, she is abandoned, and her entire future as she had envisioned it is gone. It was SO heartbreaking and infuriating! Scott-- and his entire family-- had to go through the same thing 5 years ago. Major divorces have happened twice in his family, and it makes him sick. The utter devastation it does to EVERYONE is so appalling. It affects everyone despite what the one leaving seems to rationalize to him/herself. The lasting impact of divorce is passed on to every generation of the family forever and ever. Those poor boys-- how are they supposed to establish healthy relationships when they look at the example their dad has set for them?!

Of course-- no one ever thinks that divorce will happen to them. At one time, our neighbor was in the exact spot we are now-- New babies, new life, new hope-- wonderfully exciting happy times! How could she have known that 25 years later her husband would sit across from her and confess that he had never really loved her and that her whole life had been a lie?!?!

The whole thing really disturbs me. I look at the 5 couples in our small group... Odds say at least one of us won't make it. So, how do we all beat the odds?! How do we keep from finding ourselves in the same boat 20 years from now-- if not sooner? How do we keep from becoming blind or naive about the condition of our marriages? How do we maintain the love and respect we have for each other? How do we avoid sharing our hearts with another and drifting apart?

Well-- I certainly do not have all the answers to those questions. But, we have decided that if we ever forget the calling God has given us-- to be faithful to one another, then it is over. If we don't daily sacrifice our wants to what God wants for us, then we completely make ourselves vulnerable to the collapse of our relationship. I am already praying in advance that God will protect and preserve our marriage and those of our friends. I cannot imagine putting Luke and Caroline through a divorce. Lord, may neither Scott nor I put our own selfish wants and desires ahead of our promise to you or the peace of our children. You have not called me to "make myself happy at all costs"-- instead, You have called me to live in Your JOY, regardless of my circumstances.

Right now, I am just SO thankful that Scott and I are happy, in love, and blessed! I want to treasure these times always! Thank You, Lord! :)