Thursday, March 17, 2005
Sickness, Songs, Pringles, and Passion
It has been awhile since I last blogged-- lots of stuff going on, as usual! First, Luke contracted his very first illness-- not bad since he is 13 1/2 months-old. He caught one of the stomach bugs that has been ravaging through Nashvegas. He spent an entire day vomiting, another day with 104 temp, and until today, hasn't had a bite of food in over three days! This morning he awoke with a little more spunk, although it took him one hour to eat a saltine cracker-- I think he's on the mend. So, all week, I have done little more than sit and hold him. It was actually nice to have nothing else on my schedule but to be with him and to comfort him.
We have also started work on our next conference CD for ZOE. We are recording in a beautiful studio this year-- The Bennett House in Franklin. That is where Ken Young (Hallal) is doing all of his stuff now, and he was instrumental in getting us in there-- THANKS! We are also working with two new engineers-- Josh and Chris, who ROCK! There has been such a nice chemistry amongst us so far-- I am expecting this to be one of my favorite CDs yet. We have six songs down which means we are almost halfway through. I wish people knew what a kick our recording times are!-- Then again, maybe not!
As Brandon stated on his blog, we are an opinionated group! The tenors and altos are infamous for fighting it out for the best notes! This weighs on Brandon's nerves, no doubt, but I am personally so thankful for him and his leadership style. He lets us hash things out, but then puts his foot down when he needs to and lays out his vision for each song. I am so glad that as singers we have input into not only the songs we will sing but even each note of our parts. Not many groups can say that, I'm sure, and that's why I think our ZOE arrangements are fun and different-- they are the result of nine people who have engaged in a creative and artistic battle for what each thinks is best! Not something to be witnessed by anyone but us, probably! We all know we are family and that even after the "discussions" we will never stop loving each other.
We also spend much time and energy snacking! Pringles, grapes, crackers and cheese, and all things chocolate have been the staple snacking foods for us since the beginning. We each contribute different goodies to the pile each night and then we scarf them down between takes and rehearsal time. Let it be said-- ZOE folks love to eat!
The theme of this year's conference is going to be along the lines of the Incarnation-- or how God has broken through into our lives and into our worlds, and how that has and is impacting us.... Very interesting. Can't wait to hear the testimonies from people on that one. I think it will be different than anything we have done before. Even though the conference is months away, it will really be here before we know it. It is one of my favorite weekends of the year, no doubt. If you have never experienced it, you should. I think official registration starts in May, but don't delay, we have been selling out the spots! Go to http://zoegroup.faithsite.com/ and click on the Look to the Hills Conferences link for more information. I would love to meet some of you in the blogging community in person! Please make sure to introduce yourselves!
So much of my time, energy and thoughts have been wrapped up in ZOE so far in 2005. In the past 2 1/2 months (10 weeks) we have traveled to Fresno, Abilene, spent two hours every Wednesday night rehearsing, and 3 days in the studio--- and we aren't even through-- we have three more weekends in studio, and a week in Pepperdine coming up in just 5 weeks. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't trade ZOE for the whole world-- it is one of the biggest blessings in my life... it just seems like it has been way too easy for me to slip into "ZOEland" lately and to lose track of my own intimate journey with the Lord. I really need to work on that...-- what's new?! I am so thankful that He is a God of mercy and compassion!
Other than feeling like I am doing a stinky job of sharing the time that I do have with others, life is going splendidly! :) Scott and I are really in need in of getting away to have some alone time with each other, too. We have been seeing each other coming and going lately! Between our crazy travel schedules we have done little more than pass off Luke and say "hello, good bye"! I guess back when it was the two of us, although we were just as busy, we didn't really miss our "couple" time as much-- when we had time we were able to spend it together, now we spend it with Luke-- which is awesome, but doesn't really allow for us to focus on our relationship very much. We are hopefully going to sneak away for a little ski weekend next week. I really need to get back on the slopes and to relax by a warm, cozy fire! It has been two years since we have been skiing together-- I was pregnant last ski season! I hope we get away!
Last week I sang on the praise team at Woodmont. Although singing through THREE services can be tiring, one benefit is being blessed to hear three sermons-- yes, it is a blessing! :) Last week John York did all three.... He had an incredible lesson on how we try to "name" ourselves instead of letting God name and define us-- read it here-- http://www.johnyork.faithsite.com/content.asp?CID=79345
One of the quotes he ended with really struck me:
We have also started work on our next conference CD for ZOE. We are recording in a beautiful studio this year-- The Bennett House in Franklin. That is where Ken Young (Hallal) is doing all of his stuff now, and he was instrumental in getting us in there-- THANKS! We are also working with two new engineers-- Josh and Chris, who ROCK! There has been such a nice chemistry amongst us so far-- I am expecting this to be one of my favorite CDs yet. We have six songs down which means we are almost halfway through. I wish people knew what a kick our recording times are!-- Then again, maybe not!
As Brandon stated on his blog, we are an opinionated group! The tenors and altos are infamous for fighting it out for the best notes! This weighs on Brandon's nerves, no doubt, but I am personally so thankful for him and his leadership style. He lets us hash things out, but then puts his foot down when he needs to and lays out his vision for each song. I am so glad that as singers we have input into not only the songs we will sing but even each note of our parts. Not many groups can say that, I'm sure, and that's why I think our ZOE arrangements are fun and different-- they are the result of nine people who have engaged in a creative and artistic battle for what each thinks is best! Not something to be witnessed by anyone but us, probably! We all know we are family and that even after the "discussions" we will never stop loving each other.
We also spend much time and energy snacking! Pringles, grapes, crackers and cheese, and all things chocolate have been the staple snacking foods for us since the beginning. We each contribute different goodies to the pile each night and then we scarf them down between takes and rehearsal time. Let it be said-- ZOE folks love to eat!
The theme of this year's conference is going to be along the lines of the Incarnation-- or how God has broken through into our lives and into our worlds, and how that has and is impacting us.... Very interesting. Can't wait to hear the testimonies from people on that one. I think it will be different than anything we have done before. Even though the conference is months away, it will really be here before we know it. It is one of my favorite weekends of the year, no doubt. If you have never experienced it, you should. I think official registration starts in May, but don't delay, we have been selling out the spots! Go to http://zoegroup.faithsite.com/ and click on the Look to the Hills Conferences link for more information. I would love to meet some of you in the blogging community in person! Please make sure to introduce yourselves!
So much of my time, energy and thoughts have been wrapped up in ZOE so far in 2005. In the past 2 1/2 months (10 weeks) we have traveled to Fresno, Abilene, spent two hours every Wednesday night rehearsing, and 3 days in the studio--- and we aren't even through-- we have three more weekends in studio, and a week in Pepperdine coming up in just 5 weeks. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't trade ZOE for the whole world-- it is one of the biggest blessings in my life... it just seems like it has been way too easy for me to slip into "ZOEland" lately and to lose track of my own intimate journey with the Lord. I really need to work on that...-- what's new?! I am so thankful that He is a God of mercy and compassion!
Other than feeling like I am doing a stinky job of sharing the time that I do have with others, life is going splendidly! :) Scott and I are really in need in of getting away to have some alone time with each other, too. We have been seeing each other coming and going lately! Between our crazy travel schedules we have done little more than pass off Luke and say "hello, good bye"! I guess back when it was the two of us, although we were just as busy, we didn't really miss our "couple" time as much-- when we had time we were able to spend it together, now we spend it with Luke-- which is awesome, but doesn't really allow for us to focus on our relationship very much. We are hopefully going to sneak away for a little ski weekend next week. I really need to get back on the slopes and to relax by a warm, cozy fire! It has been two years since we have been skiing together-- I was pregnant last ski season! I hope we get away!
Last week I sang on the praise team at Woodmont. Although singing through THREE services can be tiring, one benefit is being blessed to hear three sermons-- yes, it is a blessing! :) Last week John York did all three.... He had an incredible lesson on how we try to "name" ourselves instead of letting God name and define us-- read it here-- http://www.johnyork.faithsite.com/content.asp?CID=79345
One of the quotes he ended with really struck me:
"Our ideal self is revealed in what we value (passion), how we understand the world (belief), and what we do to reach our ideal (behavior). Our passion, belief, and behavior fit together so intimately that I can say this with confidence: What we do is what we really value. What we value enough to do tells others what we really believe. What we really believe shapes what we will become."
Dan Allender,To Be Told: Know Your Story; Shape Your Future,Waterbrook Press 2005
It made me think about what I truly value-- where do I spend my time? How does this show others what I truly believe? These are some hard questions to answer, but strike at the very core of our Christianity and our faith. If where we spend our time and energy shapes the very core of who we become, then it is just SO important that we are spending our time focused on Him and doing His will. I know I don't always do that. Hard to be honest about it.... so much of my life I devote to self and not to others. SO FRUSTRATING!!!!
Well-- at least I realize that I need to improve and that's a pitiful little start of sorts!
Friday, March 04, 2005
Ignorantly in the Middle of It All
Yesterday Luke turned 13 months-old.... It seems so predictable and somewhat contrived to say, yet again, how fast the past 13 months have gone.... but it is so true. 13 months ago I had no concept of motherhood, no real concept of selflessness, of sacrifice.... I have learned so much through the experience of him entering into my life.
What is so hard to fathom is that one day I will be thinking those same thoughts, yet he will be on the verge of graduating high school, or getting married, or having his own child--- and to me it will probably still seem like it was just a blink back to when he was first learning to walk and to speak.
Time itself is such an interesting proposition-- after reading Slaughterhouse 5 (Kurt Vonnegut) in high school, I have always pondered "time"-- the amazing concept that it is perceived as chronological to us: one second followed by another second, by another minute, by another day, week, month, etc... But, really time is a much bigger construct than that-- so big that I am sure we can't even grasp it with our human minds. Some day I will have to ask God to reveal His whole thought process behind coming up with our concept of time. Meanwhile, I am doing my best to appreciate each second of it and to treasure the days I have with my wonderful husband and son.
As my life with Luke is going so well and is so joyful, my heart goes out to the Shaub and Griffith families. These families are spending their days kneeling beside hospital beds, watching their precious sons struggle to regain strength and spirit-- while trying to maintain theirs as well. I think about the Cope family and all that they have been through before and recently with their children.... I can't even imagine having to see Luke in a state like that-- I am not sure that I would have the strength or faith that these families continue to display. It is truly amazing.
Life is so bewilderingly overwhelming and indescribable most of the time! When I was younger I would sit around and philosophize about it-- trying to come up with answers to so many questions... Now I think I just sit around amazed.... no answers-- not even too many questions anymore-- I just observe and analyze my reactions to it-- and the reactions of others. It is just so interesting. Nothing stays the same for long-- Most everything is different than it is actually perceived-- Pain is just a pathway to learning and enlightenment-- Happiness is a choice not an event that we create-- Love is a fragile gift from above that can be terribly neglected, forgotten, or misused, but can also be the very reason for living.
Such are the crazy thoughts rambling around in my head-- I just put Luke in his crib for a nap and had to sit down and write. One day I will read this again and smile at how little I really knew about time, pain, life, and love-- but for now, I am content to sit ignorantly in the middle of it all-- to be amazed, to be thankful, and to be here, in this place, at this time, with these people who surround me, love me, and offer me a "life" to be lived and celebrated.
Thank you, Lord.
What is so hard to fathom is that one day I will be thinking those same thoughts, yet he will be on the verge of graduating high school, or getting married, or having his own child--- and to me it will probably still seem like it was just a blink back to when he was first learning to walk and to speak.
Time itself is such an interesting proposition-- after reading Slaughterhouse 5 (Kurt Vonnegut) in high school, I have always pondered "time"-- the amazing concept that it is perceived as chronological to us: one second followed by another second, by another minute, by another day, week, month, etc... But, really time is a much bigger construct than that-- so big that I am sure we can't even grasp it with our human minds. Some day I will have to ask God to reveal His whole thought process behind coming up with our concept of time. Meanwhile, I am doing my best to appreciate each second of it and to treasure the days I have with my wonderful husband and son.
As my life with Luke is going so well and is so joyful, my heart goes out to the Shaub and Griffith families. These families are spending their days kneeling beside hospital beds, watching their precious sons struggle to regain strength and spirit-- while trying to maintain theirs as well. I think about the Cope family and all that they have been through before and recently with their children.... I can't even imagine having to see Luke in a state like that-- I am not sure that I would have the strength or faith that these families continue to display. It is truly amazing.
Life is so bewilderingly overwhelming and indescribable most of the time! When I was younger I would sit around and philosophize about it-- trying to come up with answers to so many questions... Now I think I just sit around amazed.... no answers-- not even too many questions anymore-- I just observe and analyze my reactions to it-- and the reactions of others. It is just so interesting. Nothing stays the same for long-- Most everything is different than it is actually perceived-- Pain is just a pathway to learning and enlightenment-- Happiness is a choice not an event that we create-- Love is a fragile gift from above that can be terribly neglected, forgotten, or misused, but can also be the very reason for living.
Such are the crazy thoughts rambling around in my head-- I just put Luke in his crib for a nap and had to sit down and write. One day I will read this again and smile at how little I really knew about time, pain, life, and love-- but for now, I am content to sit ignorantly in the middle of it all-- to be amazed, to be thankful, and to be here, in this place, at this time, with these people who surround me, love me, and offer me a "life" to be lived and celebrated.
Thank you, Lord.
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